The Highest Ive Ever Been in My Life

what's saying everybody welcome back to the semi-regular VC shed talk although don't tell my dad that called it shed he insists it's called summer house and we don't want to incite the ra of fa Vivi also sorry about that storm really can't do anything about it I've prayed to the various Thunder based gods and none of them are listening the UK is getting battered by it so if the roof car is in at some point you know what happened basically want to talk about this thing that happened to me few months ago so went to Prague on holiday with my lit thought was going to cave in there went to Prague with my parents while ago we went on holiday brilliant holiday great great City love the culture architecture the food the drinks although it was really bizarre is over there they have these beers and you know how you get head on pint where it's just foam they literally just have beer where there's like zero body to it and it's just foam telling you these Eastern Europeans they're built differently so that was bizarre but tell you what was more bizarre have no idea about this so apparently these certain types of chemicals that they're related to cannaboids it's not quite spice there mean think some of them are synthetic but had no idea that they're actually legal in in Prague sorry keep looking about that incense stick just fell on the floor don't want don't want the the summer house to set on fire keep my eye on that but yeah so basically went into this shop there was various sort of head shops in Prague was shocked at how many there were really can't believe had no idea know that lot of countries in Europe like Portugal they allow you to consume THC but there was no THC apparently that's still illegal over there but stuff like hhc and believe it's either thcp or thca you could consume and they are psychoactive so naturally the the inner psychona within me was like well I've got to do this haven't I'm going to do some scientific research for the channel I'll show some videos that took right now and yeah lovely woman who ran the the shop can't quite remember what it was called and also don't really want to it's bit of gray area isn't it talking about this stuff is very much not legal over here but also also basically the the the moral of this story is is don't overdo it with any psychoactive substance at all and should have known better and as as someone who does YouTube regarding psychedelics and substances and alter six Consciousness should have known better but the the old Stoner ego Within Me sort of emerged when took these hhc gummies they were just these nice tasty little gummies it was skittles obviously different strains and flavors of BU and don't know how don't quite know how it relates to hhc should probably do my research but this is an offthe cuff talk don't expect any professionalism in here so took these hhc GMS was talking to woman absolutely lovely lady told her about the YouTube and did some videos and gave her some promo on the Instagram don't forget to check out the Instagram if you want some more behind the scenes viction anigan think some of my best content is on there talk so much more in depth about stuff just cuz stuff that can't really talk on the channel like psychedelic films and spiritual music and just everything food just bit of everything you'd really enjoy it if you enjoyed these more down to earth talks and the coms and more the of the personality angle to the channel so she was saying yeah two of the gummies you'd really really feel it and she would recommend that if you're regular Stoner which I'm not and foolishly foolishly decided after taking one was like yeah yeah reckon can handle another one and this this level of hubris was my ultimate downfall took two of these and they're about how many it's can't quite remember can't quite remember maybe like 300 milligrams possibly whatever it was couldn't handle it at all had the worst the worst cannabis High ever in my whole life had an ego dissolution experience in the middle of Prague and for me this is one great lesson I've learned from this cannot smoke weed or do any of this anymore can only have almost like threshold dose of of psychoactive cannaboid type substance including hhc which noticed was very very similar to THC for me but what was really scary about it was is that it was just cascading it was never stopping it kept building and building and building lot like Edibles really do and was really enjoying it at first was like I'm blazed out my head bopping about prag my parents this is hilarious having right good laugh and then some weird ass synchronicity started to go down so for anyone that knows me I'm bit of weir booo to be fair and think about okay 3 2 1 Cowboy bbop fair bit and all the other animes enjoy all the other media enjoy really all the stuff love really think about lot because why not love it and very bizarrely was starting thinking about Cowboy bbop was going off in stoned mental tangent like usually do and just thinking about art and life and reality and just overanalyzing stuff really and thought sort of felt the glimpse of all God were we're delving into paranoia overthinking territory here and then just started thinking about stuff really enjoy like like how great is such brilliantly written series beautifully animated incredible music touching story it's one of the greatest pieces of fiction ever and just the the anime in it it's the anime really let's let's be serious with ourselves it's anime Citizen Cane moment in sense what the happens when walk around this corner in the Christmas markets of Prague does like jazz primary school jazz Orchestra from Australia is performing in in the prag Christmas markets and I'm just sat there scaming with rap vers or whatever I'm doing and then just started thinking to myself like that sounds like the cowb bbop theme you know the classic I'll put the video of it only got the last little bit the last half of the song not the iconic first half of the melody that's when just that's when was happy the ego disolution experience was like my god that is the cowboy bbop Fame and was literally just thinking about it 5 minutes ago go and people obviously the more rationally minded people like well that's just coincidence they they were always going to play it and you were thinking about it it's just this is coincidence they happen in reality it's like well it's just matter of perspective isn't it but me lad when you're in that moment of Madness that was in having basically been teetering on the edge of astral projecting via hhc you don't interpret things as just coincidences you interpret them as synchronistic events that is that it was it was just ridiculous it was just ridiculous what was the chances of that happening and when realized he playing the cowboy BBU them went holy and jumped on this bench and was it's Cowboy went mad and it was the most euphoric moment I've had in very very long time when when is that ever going to happen what are the chances of one of my very very favorite series playing one of my very favorite pieces of music in Prague when was on holiday at that very moment when could have walked around the corner and not even heard it so naturally after this moment of euphoria came the downward spiral of chaotic energy was like it it felt like I'd Broken Out The Matrix it felt like I'd had Truman Show moment like my God it's all being engineered for me this reality this life the the the things operating the mechanisms behind the scenes the machine Els engineered this moment for me to listen to the Australian primary school jazz function play the Cowboy bbop theme and was like what the is going on and after that lit to my parents was like this is getting really intense now and it didn't stop it didn't stop the high was getting really really heavy was feeling myself sucked to the floor was having this horrible pressure inside my head and then started getting the fear give me valum I'm getting the fear so started getting the paranoid thoughts and then after that just had just was losing my mind was starting to have an ego disolution was like who what really am at the core what really is consciousness and usually when think about this on psychedelics or even sober have great time and really seem to delve into the beauty of what the mystery of Consciousness is but whenever have cannabis or get high on anything similar to cannabis in that sense cannaboid just literally just lose my mind and go skitzy and get start to have anxiety and Terror and existential dread over stuff that I've never asked about in my sober waking day-to-day life or on psychedelic stuff in psychedelics and start to have greater appreciation of with cannabis there's this level of fear this unnecessary fear that it gives me and this is just me this is just me and my own weird brain and biology that's wired up to curse me with these experiences it all used to be daily Stoner and used to love getting high and quite bit too much and then when started having normal psychedelic breakthroughs I've talked about this loads of times before but for anyone who doesn't know there there seems to be this common thread of people who have these really intense psychedelic experiences and start to go loopy when they have cannabis which to be honest I'm not really bothered anymore about not being able to enjoy weed because in in sense it also stopped me from using it habitually and got rid of another addiction but in sense is also quite tragic because found that weed was one of the very few things that could use that calmed down my erratic sort of ADHD riddled mind don't really know if have ADHD but definitely have very overactive mind struggle sleeping literally can't take my brain off ever not just due to the way my mind's wired up but again just my life experiences the cat addiction has definitely of my my biology but thankfully I'm recovering from that very slowly but surely you'll be pleased to know so after that the cowboy bbop cataclysm was just walking around prag and like was so high man like my eyes were literally just like slit and but if you could see to it was literally just pink was pale was all over the shop could barely walk was like just rigid like robot my bet my parents thought was having some form of aneurism and like every time would just be looking at my feet and every time looked up someone would be looking at me because was the was the highest in the building and so obviously that skits me out as well then started to distrust everyone start to get really paranoid like what the going to happen anything could happen right now someone could just get me in the back of neck with some shiv and then it was obviously it was me creating these thoughts and not being able to take control of my emotions and my mind and was just letting it slip away into into the abyss and then we went to go and book this classical Orchestra in this beautiful church for few days later in the trip and when was talking to the guy all could think in the back of my mind was this is just ruse that this whole Orchestra is just them it's fake there is no Orchestra basically the the conmen and they're selling tickets for this this sort of cult meeting where they're going to Shooters with the with AKs from up on up high on the on the church banisters how the like don't think about this when I'm sober don't I'm really I'm really good at talking to people and socializing and just letting go of my anxieties and not feeding into them but when I'm high Christ Almighty just can't just can't ha it maybe if had one of them gummies I'd be all right but had two and it was my own fault it was Karma it was kic reckoning it was all my own fault said to my dad after that was like need to go back to the flat cuz am literally melting I'm sorry and just paced it it was just miles away as well had to walk for miles to get back to the flight it was good hour in bit maybe and was just pacing it pacing it pacing it and every time looked up someone was looking at me and my parents wanted to look at stuff and show me stuff and and try to like sort of help me get out of that negative thought Loop but was too far gone sorry I'm just eating something keep keep getting bloody wind like and yeah holy but when got in that FL and just dropped myself on that sofa was like it's just rigid just stuck and was like holy at least at least can West out in peace now so stuck Alan Partridge on the TV and just watched that till felt all right and let me tell you that really sorted my head out so tell you what if you're ever going skits off board just stick alen Partridge on and it really does relax you and then stuck extras on really another really good British comedy and just need something to laugh at and relax no mind-bending Thrillers like usually watch something just something down to earth and but got that on and then finally relax and then what always happens to me when have these horrendous horrendous experiences of getting super blazed what happens is after me what happens is after me what happens to me after that bit queen's English came out there what happens to me after that is that get the euphoric relaxing Blissful peaceful State of Consciousness that obviously was taking the hhc or cannaboid to get in the first place so when the high comes off start to get this Afterglow and it feels really really beautiful but honestly cannot say it was worth it doing that at all obviously in some ways elements of and Duncan trussle talks about this about and part of me agrees with me part in sense think in for some people subjectively part parts of me doesn't AG because person for me it's not like that so he talks about how the fear that people experience on cannabis and the paranoid anxiety is actually their is actually their ego or not wanting to fess up to its shadow and its subconscious and elements of its shadow will emerge when you're high and obviously the ego doesn't like to acknowledge its wrongdoings it thinks it's the best thing ever and should stay how it is forever and all them things that people out there they're the Sinners they're the problem and me I'm I'm sound and that's the nature of separation and there is an element of that and there was elements of my shadow that came up that obviously I'm not integrated and also don't process and and suppress but the problem is is that don't think it really helped me actually Channel through it at all like well not Channel through it work through it and process it like how psychedelics do instead it comes up to surface and it just ruminate on it and just literally just get turn my state of mind into Liv in hell so yeah that was horrible highest I've ever been in my life I've never done that ever again but must rein reinstate the fact that this was all my fault and this was not the fault of PE the the legality of hhc in Prague or the shop went into at all this is my own fault for not knowing that well for for knowing and doing it and for knowing can't hack it and doing it anyway so yeah hope you learn from my mistakes and if you're one of them psychon Nots like me me who's had psychedelic breakthroughs or mystical experiences and you find that cannabis makes you skits can then just don't bother with it just you just some there gets point in life where you've just got to give it up the things you enjoyed that especially consuming things like enjoying drinking too much or consuming cannabis or binge watching TV or binge eating or doing anything that that's like giving you that sense of pleasure that you but that's been turn into crotch at some point you got to Let It Go man and yeah yeah I'm ready to let it go and just live semi sober psychedelics again I'd say they're just not something do recreationally anymore in sense still speaking recreationally at Raves and festivals and and never take ridiculous doses always take safe dose and if micro do take sub just like threshold like percept like very very very low perceptual dose to sort of have the great elevated effects without tripping too much just using these substances wisely but can tell you now won't be using cannabis anymore because it wigs me the out and gives me brain worms and I'm sick of these bloody worms just want to chill out now with my own sober Baseline State of Consciousness and enjoy that and not feel like need some chemical Catalyst to enjoy life and yeah hey the SS walking picking up pal I'm going to have to go now but hope you enjoy these videos need to do more regularly people really seem to get quite lot out of them and enjoy making them as well so yeah so my friends